im aching deep down inside . idk why . its oke , im gonna keep on trying & carry on with life . im gonna learn how to appreciate everyday of my life cause everything only happens once . of course happy moments will happen rarely & bad moments will often occurs in my life . yeaahs , im beginning to understand life , the meaning of it . i aint gonna be self-centered . i will give everyone a chance to speak their heart out . whatever i feel , im gonna put it aside & try to solve it out . only if i cant take the blow , only then i'll pursue the matter . but unless that happens , i wont do anything but to go with the flow . you people will see the difference in me , i promise .