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2011-10-02T14:08:00.003+08:00

funny isnt it, how my tumblr went berserk out of a sudden €€and im unable to use it anymore. then out of nowhere, out of the blue moon im back to using blogger. maybe i feel save using this cos it has really been a long time since i last posted an entry here so i assume that there would be no readers left. well, it always has none. actually i dont know what to update on. my life pretty suck for me. somewhere, somehow, some things just aint right. my r/s, yes, especially. constant arguments here €and there. sigh, my eyes really cant take it anymore. no matter how strong i told myself to be, i just couldnt stop th tears. nobody even understands me, not even my own boyfriend. all that he knows..... uhmm, nothing. its just so hurtful. hurtful to me, at least. today is suppodingly our 28th monthsary but everything just went wrong. see, yet another dissapointment from another expectation. i should really stop expecting too much of everything. it might all just suck as well.sighhh, another thing, o levels are round th corner.... 28(or less) more days. die die die.

whats the point of love when i keep on getting hurt? by my own b o y f r i e n d? fcuk this shit ok.

2010-09-08T18:49:00.000+08:00

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2010-05-30T12:04:00.003+08:00

i love you , i dont want us to end this way . i cant afford to do this on my own . come back to me please . )':

2010-05-25T19:50:00.001+08:00

Don't get angry on the person who broke your trust get angry on yourself cause,you trusted that person

2010-05-22T12:53:00.002+08:00

nonsensical stuffs never fails to light up my mood . (:

still waiting for my handphone to ring ): been waiting since 6.am , believe it or not , yes . sedih lah ....

2010-05-21T09:52:00.004+08:00

im stucked in a hole , where everything starts turning & turning . im surprised upon what had happened . i really didnt expect it to end this way . i love him but i cant do much . it's not working for us . sigh , i just hope for the best for us . pleasee , no more torturing oh god . )':

D: there's a meaning behind those lyrics . i dont know how to move on .

2010-05-19T17:48:00.003+08:00

hahahaha , happy bodoh ! i've got 2 A's for my examinations . my hard work REALLY paid off . didnt regret a single moment of studying alone . told papa about it & he said i'll receive my MACBOOK soon . *boogedy boogedy* :D

will study doubly hard for upcoming Prelims & then the last lap for this year (N's) . then insyaallah , i'll pass .

had cca photo-taking . its funny that we now dont mind how ugly we'll look during the phototaking session cause usually , back then , we'll spent hours in the toilet just to fix our hair & faces . still remember those times tho . of course lah , dah kakak kakak sec 4 . ___ . ehheeh , must maintain my humble-ness .

2010-05-18T20:14:00.002+08:00

i need new make ups , new look , new nails , new hair .

A MAKEOVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

'.' please mama please *wink-wink*

its Career day today , nothing much . just 1 word , BORING . we'll gonna get our results slip soon . oh my god *faints*

2010-05-17T15:14:00.003+08:00

everything's starting to take a turn . like any other roller coaster rides , our love is no different .

i love you b ... )':

2010-05-16T18:18:00.004+08:00

a day we're good & another we're not . i dont know what else to do . it hurts me when everytime i build my strength to carry on this relationship , either of us will destroy it again . & it happens again & again & again , it's countless of times . i cant help myself . im not in this alone . whats the use of having you by my side but you're not there to help me ? instead i've been always been there for you . im there for you when you needed me , but what about me ? have i ever complain ? sigh , its okay .

i will still be holding on to my love , as promised . sigh . .

2010-05-15T10:05:00.002+08:00

blinded by love & willing to sacrifice anything even it hurts .

MORNING-MORNING-MORNING !

i woke up early , very early , thanks yeh love . __ . he woke me up at 4a.m followed by 5a.m due to his worrying over his bike . well , i dont mind actually cause we didnt really get to have a good chat the day before as my house phone went berserk . so we called each other using our phones . not sastified tho . i miss him )':

gonna clean the house , been a while since i did house chores . then i'll be meeting love . so i guess , till later . (:

2010-05-14T12:19:00.003+08:00

exams over & i guess this's an opportunity for me to start blogging . sheesh , it had been a while since i last laid my fingers on this keyboard . it was such a relief to know that exams is over but not for N's . it will come pretty soon . hate the fact that i've no plans for this coming holidays except for the fact that im gonna celebrate my precious 1 year anni ^^Y , for that i cant wait . mom asked me to work at her place but i planned to study & get prepared for my N's . well , idk .

im getting bored , a boring friday . Love's working & he's gonna get home only after 6 . ): im missing him so much tho we met yesterday . just cant get enough of him . its cute that we're planning to get married , :P berangans but who knows it'll get true . i love him y'know ?

sigh , this boredom is killing me . was supposed to go kkh for my appointment actually . but papa & mama bubble me . well well , this means i'll just have to sit at home . how i wish i could have a movie theater in my house so that i wont get this bored . ....

BYE ,

2010-03-22T20:32:00.003+08:00

decided to blog since i've completed my task for holidays . well , hope i wont forget to send the assignments to Cikgu . like i say im gonna get back to my study mood .

thanks Ariff for making up for your mistakes but not to be too sure cause im still hurt deep down inside :P well , only i knows how it feels oke ? & people commit mistakes , so forgive & forget . hope you wont repeat it again . im not trying to be too over-protective but it just takes time for me to get used to your freedom life ..... give me time to think .. Girls get jealous & insecure all the time ... or maybe its just me ? idk , if you know me than you should know how i am . im doing all this cause i love you . just feel so afraid of losing you . i dont want history to take place .

&&&&&

2010-03-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

yes , tired . it has been pumping quite fast since just now , or to be exact , since the whole day . why you treat me so unfairly ? i feel so cheated . why you can do whatever it is you're doing now & i cant ? well , i dont even bother doing that to you . so why did you do that to me ? this is sunday & you know tmr i'll be starting school & you dont even mind if we didnt talk for tonight ? whatever much to you & your attitude . today, you spoil my mood & im turning in . goodnight . dont bother to call me . PERIOD !

2010-03-21T21:10:00.003+08:00

fcuk ,

somehow he dont deserve to be worried . hais

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQBCNkMREGE

i hate love - jojo

listen to it , its nice .

2010-03-21T19:43:00.002+08:00

feeling doleful & blue . sigh , what a day . i forced my legs out of the house & attended somewhat-who's wedding thinking i could feel better . but no , i feel down . bleah , forget bout everything & back off !

school's gonna re-open tmr so please get into my study mood .

2010-03-16T21:10:00.001+08:00

okehh , i think im happy with my current blogskin . how ? any comments ? do tell me your views .

& ohh yar , i lost all of you guy's links ... ):

so sorry , but if you dont mind .. do tag me if you want to be link-ed .

once again , im so sorry /

2010-03-16T15:36:00.002+08:00

tag replies ;

to those who wants to relink-ed , do wait till im free kay ? ^^

(from oldest to latest)

dya ; serious ? it was just a random pic ^^

farhanah ; eyy hi . *blushes* well , thanks . you are too y'know . add me up in msn kayy ? see ya there .

suep ; hey , the title is without you - pixie lott & thanks for the compliments yea ?

ikah ; eyy harlow ~ yeah , lamer sesangat ! hows you ? (:

ariff ; ey hi bby , imysmm :D

2010-03-16T14:11:00.003+08:00

i miss ARIFFjaffry , i miss him pinching my cheeks & tummy whenever i made him pissed . i miss making faces to him . well , i cant get enough of you k baby ? cant believe that we've been together for almost 10 months . lets fulfill our wish & get married one fine day alright ? i wanna have your babies .

WHATSOEVER IT IS , ILOVEYOU !

went for maths remedial like a good girl do . paid attention in class & learned a new topic .was quite fun tho .

thats all for now .

2010-03-15T20:18:00.002+08:00

im random , very . suddenly feel the urge to blog .

chalet was a blast , ^^Y . will upload pictures when i've the mood .

there's maths tmr & im gonna attend it cause thats the only lesson for the whole week . im not going out this week , gonna take this opportunity to study & complete my hw . no holiday mood for me . ((:

im happy with the people around me cause i know they love me . well , at least i know that im being appreciated in a sense or another .& love has been great . though we had fights , misunderstanding , i know he'll make it up to me . i love him , yes i do .

so thats all for today . love you people . keep on rolling the tags ^^

2010-03-11T20:15:00.002+08:00

hello lovely readers . *waves hands !!!*

gosh , beeen so busy that i had no time to even update my blog . sorry readers & sorry for not replying you guys's tags . will soon !

just gonna tell you that i wont be blogging till further notice ! preparing for mid year , & eventually prelims . ^^Y sayonara people . but no worries , i will still be checking my blogshop . so do tag by !

2010-02-10T14:45:00.002+08:00

eyy wey , im bored . im in the school's library completeing the rest of my e-learning . sungguh leceh , i swear . now , with diyana doing the same thing . & im gonna get crazy soon . its not that worryfying that a pimple appeared at my forehead cause its obvious ! im just under pressure la kan . heeee , whatsoever . had test 3 days straight , imagine that pressure thats pressing your brains down . ouch , yes OUCH ! Liem told us that everyone did badly for her test , so yeah . im prepared to know my results . dissapointing enough ? well , up to her .

& not fair . we must report in school early for tomorrow . pfffft , & no half day on friday . haiyah .

i miss baby ! sayonara everyone ~

2010-02-05T18:14:00.002+08:00

okeeh , aku mendak ! doing e-learning homeworks at a cyber cafe which is unknown to me . Dee's the one who brought me here as the library have no powerpoint software & blaa blaa blaa laa huh . buang mase saye aje go library tadi . & YES !!! im so damn pissed with my laptop ..... cause last minute all my microsoft softwares went berserk . hmpf , then i have to drag my feet out of my house . money burnt )): luckily its for my CA marks if not , i have no time to even entertain all this shits .

yes , im so pathetic . despite my mood & condition , i still have to do all my homeworks ): while im supposed to be at bong keng(is that they way how it's being spelled ?) doot dot dot . hais , dont ever wanna mention .

i miss love , see you tomorrow yea honey ? hope everything's get better . muahs .

2010-02-05T10:36:00.002+08:00

i didnt know i could make things this way . i feel twice as hurt as you . i thought it was just a nightmare but when i woke up , i realised that everything's happening . its really happening & i wonder who can put a stop to it . i was really afraid that it could be my last kiss . i regret everything that i did . dont think that i dont love you , cause i do . i feel the difference without you , i hate myself for doing all that . i cant seem to forgive myself . i dont know what to do without you .

i miss you love . ):

2010-02-03T16:10:00.003+08:00

oke , im back again . im bored , obviously . :O

& looook ~ i love the old gaga rather than the new one . she look much more preetier with her wig hair , thats a wig right ? & ya whatsoever it is , gaga is still the one & only . she's unique . whee~

2010-02-03T15:57:00.001+08:00

oke , im pissed . such a waste of time . I've like posted a long paragraph for love & then it just disappeared . pf ft . __ .

2010-02-03T15:42:00.003+08:00

remember this , love ?

just reached home , was held up due to the lecture that was given by plenty of teachers . i was so bored to death . school has never been fun , depending on the teacher , of course . as for today , it was oke . again , im so damn happy as p.o.a test was pushed to next monday / tuesday ! heee , seronok luh ape lagi .

next week , we're gonna have both humanities test . hopefully my brain cells could take up the pressure . bleaaaaah , insyaallah .

& no more house songs . hee , irritating right ? having house songs plus reading my blog . otak mampos .

k byeeee ~

2010-02-02T15:26:00.002+08:00

first thing first , happy 8 months ~

just reached home from school , didnt expect our mother tongue remedial to end that early . was quite a waste of time , actually . but to think of it , it was lucky for us that it ended early cause i am soooooo tired . & im so happy that p.o.a test was pushed to tomorrow & that we could have some more time for revision . bleaah , this topic sucks ... cause we have to do all the accounts & do you know how irritating it can get ? it can get sooo irritating that you could re-do all of the question back . grr , you guys will never understand me . come , stand in my shoes & you'll know .

well, i miss love so so much . will be meeting him only on thursday which is so so long for me . heeh . so sedih . blaaa blaa blaa

k bye , i wanna do a lil bit of houseworks . must put on a good act in order to get my itouch . huhuhu ~ :P

2010-02-01T12:14:00.003+08:00

*screamsssss* i neeed to thread a.s.a.p ! like cave-woman already . ARIFF ; you better not laugh upon reading this . cause your eye-brows is similar as mine ! :P . so yes , i absent myself from school again . this time round , it was by accident . im late for school so as usual , i went home . there's another p.o.a test , sigh . im not even prepared , sadly . anyone willing to teach me accounting ? pleasee . ):

did homeworks since i came back from school , till now . well , part of me is on the laptop . there'll be no school on thursday & friday due to e-learning day . promised baby to fetch him from school ^,^

in less than 24 hours , we'll both reach 8 months . so happy advance monthsary . see how time flies ? im so loving you each and everyday . dont ever think that my love will go away . my heart wont dare to do that cause i cant see you hurt . every moment with you is like a blessing & every moment without you makes my heart ache . dont ever leave me ? loveyou so so much . muahs .

okeee , thats all for now . update again soon . tata lovelies . gonna get down to business . ceeey , business seh . :P

2010-01-30T20:02:00.002+08:00

olaaaaaa~ my god . SOLONG since i last logged in . ages oke?

& yes! ariff's comp so tuaaaa~ no memory card reader . geram jek. heeee~ been spending my whole day with ariff , his mother & my 2 little cute boys . heeee , this tam tam has been disturbing since i came here . notty boy . lucky he's out to sing song . heeee ^^

school , macam oke oke baby laa haaa . test has been bombarding our whole class . stresss macam nak mampus . absent myself on thursday cause i was so lazy plus did some shopping . thats what i call stress-free .

ariff so vain , he just bathed and he asked "macam nak pkai baju lain uh" . bodoh ~ so vain vain vain , vain-er than me . VAINPOTTY ~ okee im bored . dont know what else i wanna say .

oh yesss , im meeting my double fish fingers tmr ~ imissthem all . huhu! gonna head to johor. i'll buy you all a gift k? noooooooo way ~ K MEREPEK ! byebye ~

2010-01-15T15:48:00.002+08:00

eh hi ,

i switch on my laptop the first thing after i had my bath . it had been a while okaay since i last use-d it . had wardrobe today but thank goodness we end it early . & its friday , i can have a nice rest , awaay from books but only for a while luh . school was ok . been giving my attention to all the teachers . i wanna have a good & long testimonial when i've got my results . hehe .

speaking bout results , i was dissapointed for not being among the 16 students whom were selected for P.O.A O's . so sad & disappointed yaa'll know ? its just simply because i've heard from Ms.Liem , herself , that Accounting N's is harder than O's . bleah . sucky right? just hope that i would achieve 18 or so . as long as i can carry on with my studies in poly ^^

i miss ariff , i miss my fasha & fizah . my double f , my fish finger . (: and ariff my mcspicy . ooooh i like . will be meeting <3>

im bored & hungry so SAYONARA !

2010-01-04T14:12:00.003+08:00

FIRST OF ALL ~

happy schooling -_- to those who has completed your journey in secondary schools , congrats . but to us . pelan-pelan kayuh sudah laaa . N'level prelims will be this august so its gonna happen fast . bleaaah , suckyy . but i will persevere , endure with all the outcome . but i believe if i put in hard work , it could be paid off . gonna struggle through my last 2 years in a good way . hopefully i could manage to go to sec 5 instead of retain/ ITE . but if i had no choice , ite will be it . yea .

school was ok , it was like any other day . Mr.Saktun is our new form teacher . better than Chew , right ? english teacher , Mrs.Fanny Loke , what the hell ? she's making a comeback for us uh . __ . itating . of all classes , why must she teach our class ? grr , P.O.A , Liem as usual . was hoping for a new one anyway . lols (laughing out loud shaking) muahahaha , merepek ! geography , Ms.Mary . oke-oke baby uh . then the rest , didnt change . as for my sitting arrangement , im sitting at the 2nd row instead of the 2nd last . wanna concentrate more . & then , that's it .

love suker tau , ade banyak minah entered Ite balestier . lols , cbei . & yes , facebook uploader , please be kind to me . this is the 767563544790 time im uploading the malacca pics . i hope it would be a successful one cause i want to upload my other pics . D:

kehh la , see ya next time !

2009-12-29T14:35:00.002+08:00

was dissapointed . utterly disappointed . school books were all out of stocks . D: i wanna cry out loud !

baby was disappointed too , he failed his 1.3 prac . i told him , it was alright . & it was good enough that he passed his 1.1 and 1.2 , right ? so chill mayne ~ you can do it , my dear . so yes , this evening he'll be re-taking his 1.3 while ill be on the stage shaking hands with mr.ong ah heng for my burssary awards . yey ! dapat duit , not -.- '

k laaa bye ! adios amigos pergi mampus ! :P nak pi carik buku pat popular ataupun di cambridge . malus nak tunggu school reopen . waduhhh ~

k bye lovelies !

2009-12-28T19:34:00.003+08:00

Amii Mouse :P

sorry for not updating . feeling kindda lethargic ever since im back from Malacca . didnt had enough of sleep lately . & i guess my blog's dead , aint it ? but it wont be a problem to me since its just for me to ponder out my feelings .

school's gonna start soon , real soon , i mean . & i hadn't even start on my assignments . i must start on it soon . maybe tomorrow , just maybe . the year's gonna end soon , it seems just yesterday that the year has just begun . days are passing by so fast that i didnt realise it'll soon be 2010 . fast aint it . im gonna change by next year . gonna be a new me . im gonna concentrate more on studies than every negative-circumstances that im gonna face later on . if gods willing , i will move on 2010 with a clear mind .

hmm , i hope january will be a good year to start off with . hopefully everything will turn out good . but no worries , with love & my loving family by my side ... 2010 will be a good year .

okaay , im done . ^^Y

2009-12-23T19:02:00.002+08:00

im aching deep down inside . idk why . its oke , im gonna keep on trying & carry on with life . im gonna learn how to appreciate everyday of my life cause everything only happens once . of course happy moments will happen rarely & bad moments will often occurs in my life . yeaahs , im beginning to understand life , the meaning of it . i aint gonna be self-centered . i will give everyone a chance to speak their heart out . whatever i feel , im gonna put it aside & try to solve it out . only if i cant take the blow , only then i'll pursue the matter . but unless that happens , i wont do anything but to go with the flow . you people will see the difference in me , i promise .

2009-12-20T09:59:00.002+08:00

today's gonna be a hectic & an occupied day . im gonna rush myself to geylang-bedok-jurong & the following day to Malacca for a 1 night trip . see , how busy i am ? im gonna miss love & family of course . but luckily , today me & love will be busy together . yeahh . we're gonna do the surprise i've mention earlier . ^^ atlast . a surprise it is , so i wont mention anything till it's time . huhu ^^Y . waiting for mother to finish siap-ing . like HALOOOOOOO ~ i woke her up at 8 but she still dilly-dalli-ed . aiyaah . buring . i've packed my bag . use-d my mom's SONIA RYKIEL PARIS's bag . quite convenient unlike Long-Champ . bleaah , i dah macam orang nak lari rumah . kekeke . didnt brought my charger along cause i've charged it for the whole night . hopefully it last till tuesday .

khatib's neighbourhood , especially my area .. 600+ is full of jokers laa . leave the matreps & minah-reps bawah kolong aside kays ? cause they are already a joke mah . kay merepek . as i was saying , here , there's plenty of un-logical humans . pagi pagi sudah karaoke , kalau nyanyi semerdu bunga mawar merah tidak mengapa , ini terpekik terlolong macam kene rogol . :O saket telinge . then , what more worse .. early in the morning , as early as 6.am there'll be a couple shouting here & there & thats my neighbour la . at times . & then as early as that , there'll be a motor driving past our block & playing loud on his stereo . mak kao , otak mampus pe ? aduyy . & then , haiyaa . idk laa . macam macam , you guys should take my position & you'll know . no privacy uh .

oke la , i better get going ..

ok ok , before that im just gonna say that i will be missing my honey pie baby so much when im away . take care of yourself , dont naughty naughty . stay at home like good boys do . dont linger around , cause i dont ever want to cut your dick twice . :P neeh , i sayang you kays . i know you wont be unfaithful , youre a man of your words right ? you better be . ^^Y just so you know , i will miss you so much . if you're bored just log in to my blog , & let it all out . :D i bet you wont . cause you're a zombie mah . a zombie where got blog . haha , memain jeh . keh bye babys ! love you MUHD ARIFF !

2009-12-18T22:02:00.002+08:00

cute right ? :P

i've just finished eating my nasi lemak . i ate all the prawns ! i cant resist the temptations uh . temptation in my heart . hahaa , merepek . at last i feel very satisfied , & my tummy feels very happy ^^Y . watching HANTU RAYA now , i thought it was a comedy cause the name hantu raya doesnt seem scary enough but it wasnt . its a ghost show . & a malay one . bleah , sucks .

oh my god , im having hiccups . am growing uh . heh ^^ i wanna be tall as Ariff can ? so that i woulnt need to tip-toe just to give him a kiss . :P eeee mentel anak zulkifli . sure enough mama will say that if she would read this . KAN MAMA KAN ? if you guys wanna know , if she gets bored with survey-ing her handbags online , she would go to my blog & kpo kpo . heeeeh ^,^ sayang mama .

grrrrrrr , im bored . my mood to blog has came ! thats the reason why i updated twice as for today . lol , maybe i've got a new skin ? & YES !! WHY THE HELL IS MY BLOGSHOP DEAH EH ?! help me clear my stuffs luh ): sodey uh . lu orang semua rah-baq uh . )):

woaaah , discovered a new game in facebook today . SUPER DANCE ! yaay ! my new addiction , i've kicked my zoo world & restaurant city aside . both of them are 2 boring games . dont play them . it sucks . only cafe world is the best ! soon , it'll be my super dance . yay yay ! they play-ed us nice songs as well . autoo ~ whee ! go try go try . damn syiok . okok , enough !

BYE ! wanna play my S.D ! hehehe

2009-12-18T13:47:00.002+08:00

holla !

im so hungry hungry , swear ! should i eat now ? uhr , maybe later after i'm done posting . waiting for love to reach . he's sick , told him to rest at home but he insisted . he has diarrhoea , serve him right for having kfc yesterday night . heh heh ^O^ i dared him to use diapers , & then he accepted . lol ! lets see if he really does use it , kan . as if he really wants to use it . dummy uh that boy . but still , i love him . hee .

kk , im bored . bleaah ~ i wanna eat ! bye !

2009-12-17T18:21:00.002+08:00

heey wassap dwangz?!

so sorry for privatising my blog for almost a day now . haha , i'd bet nobody even drops by does they ? except for my love .. spent my 5 fcuking hours just to change the skin . stupid ! but it was quite worth it . it came out beautifully aint it ? but messy ah )): nvm nvm , it sastifies me tho . no more changing till further notice . i've changed my song to video phone , can you guys hear it ? do you ? nice right ? haha . okeoke . enough on my stupidity .

just FYI , my online users blaablaablaaa my archieves is all at the bottom of my page . & please press my nuffnang k ? just presss je , press press press press ! tolong menolong ye ? :P

monday gonna go to malacca with cousins to fetch grand-nanny . ^^Y apaa lagi , shopping skali uh . daddy's gonnna give me bucks , whuu~ i loike . but the sadden-ing part is that , im gonna miss baby . ):

okok , bye ! this youngest sister of mine is nagging at me . D: do tag k lovelies ?

MUWAAHS

2009-12-16T23:40:00.001+08:00

oh myy , i cant take any blows anymore . i cant handle it myself . i cant hide anymore . i dont know whats happening to me . we're drifting apart . he doesnt care . i dont know . i cant find myself . i always end myself crying every night . i dont know why . i hate myself . i hate my life , i cant be perfect but why ? my god , please .

2009-12-14T13:23:00.002+08:00

webby with bby since i miss him so much . tho i spent my 2 whole days with him , im always missing him . i sengaje snap-ed our convo , nak jealous kan bby because of my wallpaper . since bby didnt have ALL of our pics . baahaa ! padan muka , told him to bring his usb cable if he wants the picture . facebook upload punya lama !

holidays gonna end soon , sedih ): homework still hasn't been done . dee pun tak buat ! doh tul ! yok gi library sesamer . one day before holidays end k ? k best .

today was supposed to be my "CANT WAIT" day , but mummy & kak dya got something to attend to . alaa , bored uh . nemmind , gonna wait .

ariff's mother cute ah ! she said to ariff , "best eh kalau amirah boleh tido sini lagi , mak ade teman " awww , hahah .

k laaa , if you want the pictures ! go see in my facebook ! blueks . BYE!

2009-12-10T12:58:00.002+08:00

omgosh , i've been lazing around for this whole month . didnt even bother to update my blog la . hmmms . im sick of my skin , im sick of the fact that nobody's viewing my blog that they used to D: sodeey . k bye ! i'll update when i have the feeling to change my skin . & yes , i just cant wait for monday ! hais , omg omg . that's gonna be a surprised . huhu !

2009-12-07T12:34:00.003+08:00

im feeling all sentimental / fcuked ? i dont care , nobody cares . you dont care either . i dont know why , my tears kept hanging . i kept thinking why ? but i have no idea what . why must i feel this way ? am i still your star for many nights ? i feel so akward . why you reacted that way ? is that the way you are ? you're but i've just realised i cant take it anymore . you're reaction-less , alright ? i'll get use to it . no doubts .

2009-12-05T19:51:00.000+08:00

dedicated to baby . hope you'll read the lyrics .

2009-12-01T10:55:00.002+08:00

firstly , hello 2-fresh-painful-pimple ! why must you come when my bday's coming huh ? fyyza said its a gift . no , it cant be a gift . sheesh . & yeah , tmr's 2nd . lol ! 2 pimple on the 2nd of december . seronok sesangat . what a 15 bday .

seems like i cant wait for tmr , not because of my bday but because me & love will be going to east coast !! maybe we're swimming , maybe we're not . prolly not cause im lazy to change back & stuffs . & yes , HAPPY ADVANCE 6 MONTHS MY BABY ! :D wuuhuu ! alaa , he belum bangun . k nvm .

today i'll be meeting my p.sch mates ! yey ! rindu dengan anak anak jahanams itu ! OOPS ! :P lagi lagi suffy the bitch . kan suffy kan ? haha , jokes luhh . we're meeting to plan the outing for this 10th december . semuaa mesti datang ! but but , darlyna tak ikutt . ): nvm , next time la ye !

so now am waiting for my customer , then gonna go to CC to send my burssary thing . dapat $350 wey ! happy you know i !

better get going . bye !

2009-11-27T08:06:00.002+08:00

gosh , i dont know where to start . my mind has tons to say . that goes the same to my heart . my body is not up to good shape , my urine infection came again ? that is why i woke up early today , even love who usually wake up earlier , woke up later then me . sigh :/ like oh my god , i even missed my cca . i hope Aisah understands , but how to when i didnt inform her ? & speaking of these , my heart starts to pump faster , cause eventually i'll start on friends .

no no no , from the scratch i know i wont have true friends cause friends are only there just for the sake of being there . for example , in school we cant hide cause where ever we go , we'll confirm-ly will bump into each other BUT when we are'nt in school , things will take a turn .

idk eh , maybe true friends are there but i had'nt realise it ... oke oke , lets not talk about true friends . lets talk about friendship ... does friendship last , does it ? i dont mind not having true friends but friendship ? my mind is going for a ride right now . you know why i still have baby & the fact we're much more closer than before ? cause i took him as my TRUE-FRIEND , a brother & of course my boyfriend . he's been the pillar of strength to me for the past few months . i believe so cause we've been so straight-forward . & yes exactly ! the outmost thing in friendship is to be straight-forward & not share our "weaknesses" with others , isnt that we call backstabbing ? now , thats what i call a backstabber . pfft .

enough bout friendship , i miss everyone keh ?

now , lets talk my young sister here . CONGRATULATIONS NUR ATHIRAH BINTE ZULKIFLI . im so proud of you for making an achievement to the express stream for your psle . all your hard work has been paid off , you even did better than me . (: once again , im so proud of you ^^Y

& YES , SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI ! pagi-pagi saye sudah dengar takbir raya , ohh so merdu . i like ~ :D after this gonna meet all my cousins , my aunty's , my uncles's , my atok , my nenek , semuaaa laa senang kate !

hmm , love should be that sick cause he still havent woke up . aish , hope he gets better today .

& yes , yesterday we went to yishun safra to play pool . we enjoyed every moment of it . since we both had nothing to do , why not try something we both had'nt tried together . im lazy to upload the pics here , so you'll only find the pic in my facebook . (:

bye people

2009-11-21T19:45:00.000+08:00

"big girls dont cry"

2009-11-21T19:23:00.002+08:00

" banyak yang bercinta , bertahun-tahun putus juga "

originated from jangan bilang tidak .

hais D:

2009-11-21T15:39:00.002+08:00

my god , im so bored at home & nobody knows it . this is such a boring saturday . & its like hello ! *waves hands* its just the beginning of the weekends . haiyaaah . not meeting love today cause his mother wants him to be at home . as for me , im just gonna rot and idle at home . __ . my neck is so painful , the veins's like pulling & i think i need a nice sleep . hais , i miss love .

i woke up early for goodness sake , special thanks to papa & lala for waking me up just to accompany mama to 200 + , we bought cookies stuffs & then had our breakfast at mac . then when we reached home , i talk-ed with love otp & then baked cookies . & now , im bored like hell . PFFFFFFT much . text-ed love at 1 + + but still no replies from him . im so sad sadden sadded . i just miss him so much ):

k la bye , i miss my girls .

2009-11-20T21:44:00.002+08:00

(cute kan ni babi ? macam porn star ! lol i know he knows je)

hello , :D

musim hujan ler nowadays . it has been raining & raining & kept me going on to the toilet . bby said its good for me cause it helps to wash our inner body blaah blaah blaah . cam paham . :P im missing him so much . it's as if we had'nt met for days while fact is , it's had just been hours . booohooo , hate this feeling . gonna meet him tmr , i dont care .

hmmm , im a good gf & thats for sure confirm confirm chop chop . firstly , i willingly woke up early in the morning & come down all the way to cck & then to bbdc just to accompany muhd ariff , my baby . (eee , mushy sia . hahaha ) secondly , im not as hot-tempered as to scold him & get angry over small matters . see , i change y'know . :D thirdly , i always entertain you with my jokes kan ? (really ah ? , i main letak je . haha . ) kehh laa , this is only for him to judge but the first 2 facts is true for sure ! :D

hmmm , for sure ariff is'nt a good bf cause firstly , he doesnt wants to help me transfer his house songs to my laptop . secondly , he dont want to transfer his songs to my laptop . thirdly , didnt want to transfer his songs to my laptop . fourthly , he is so "like whatever" for not transfer-ing his songs to my laptop . SEEE ! so bad right ? no laa , but whatever it is ... ilovehim so much . only i feel that way .

i tengah garuk kepala , pikirin dimana sih makhluk yang gue cintai pergi ? ngomong-nya dia mahu pulang awal nyari tetapi dimana sih kamu ? gue udah kangen deh ama kamu . aduuh , enggak tahan ah !

blaa blaa blaa , im bored like hell . come come entertain me , my darling readers / bloghoppers / grasshoppers / whatever .

BYE!

2009-11-17T14:00:00.002+08:00

D: D: D: , pain ! this month mensus is such a pain . boohoo , the blood kept streaming & this will be the 2nd time it got my bedsheets stain-ed ): menyesal mandi lambat , aish . this pain is really killing me , i cant take it anymore . my leg is always shaking & i really cant resist this . my leg is also damn cold . omg , seriously this cant carry on anymore . thought i would want to pee but its not . my god , please spare me this time round .

keh bye , i want to search for my menstruation pills ):

2009-11-16T12:50:00.002+08:00

ohmygod , you guys should download the new googlechrome , everything is so fast . fast as in , no lags and stuffs . WHOO~

anyway , that wasnt my intention . on last friday , me & love went to catch for a movie (2012) . & i would love to rate it 8/10 . minus 1 for the looooong god-damn hours , & minus another for the merepek ending . i thought when the world ends , everyone is so dead . ? idk . that movie kept making me cry , thanks to bby's shoulder for being a tissue for the whole 2hour & 30 minutes . but i hate him for always leaving me alone in the theater just because he needed the toilet urgently .

anyway , i love the effects most ! you guys should catch it & repent ! & wish that your life could be extended longer :P anyway , this is just a movie and its not real , its just a joke for goodness sake . its doesnt state so in the al-qur'an & the bible . i've read the qu'ran already ^^Y , for begginers only , where the words are all in alphabets . ahaha , & yes that's an achievement im talking about here !

hahahaha , bye bebehs !

2009-11-16T12:27:00.003+08:00

hello bebehs ! wuuhuu , see my malas-nak-update-blog mood came again . like pffft , so you guys wont see me updating my blog that frequently unless my wheee-nak-update-blog mood appeared uh . :D im waiting for my love to reach here , miss him so much . 6 months coming , *jumpingjumping* not * jampijampi* eh . :P keh mepek . bday coming too :D thanks for all the sacrifices that you've made for all these months , for tolerating & enduring my nonsense , for comforting & make me feel secured with your soothering words and phrases , for you goodmorning messages and everything about you .

this morning , i received a message from love saying that he couldnt sleep and it was at around 7.40+ , obviously i was asleep cause im tired so i'll tend not to feel any vibration from my phone . and then i replied him around 10 asking why is that so & why didnt you called me & guessed what he said , " no , i didnt want to disturb you cause i know you're tired & i couldnt get to sleep cause i cant wait to meet you " whee ~ then i couldnt get back to sleep . so as you know , i've been wondering .. has i treated him badly or the other way round cause i've realised that for all these while you were the one adding sweetness in our relationship . im sorry aye bby if that's so ?

currently , am downloading the new google chrome?(whatever it is) just decided to update my oh-my-goodness laptop that needs a new life (i guess?) as for my msn , dont ask . i've been loosing contacts (like wth?!) & i have only 8 friends , that aint an issue but all my net gfs contacts is gone . pffft !

wont be going out later , & im sure this holidays is such a mundane . okeh bye .

2009-11-15T21:41:00.002+08:00

ILOVEMYBBY !

2009-11-12T15:39:00.001+08:00

FART FART FART DAAY ~

first it was sonia then it came to me . idontknow whats wrong with the both of us . wardrobe today was rather fun , ms.aisah bought us kfc yet it couldnt be finished . i know she love us if not whats the $77 kfc meal for , right ? :P we played around , laughed just like those kids under my blk , try-ed all stuffs that was there and like duhhhh CAM-WHORE ! obviously , whats fun without a camera right ? i'll upload them when i received those pictures from sonia when she came online later . pffft , how long must i wait eh apple ?

there will be n wardrobe tomorrow as we've already cleared up the wardrobe , like YES ~ a day and a week off . but like ms.aisah said , we're must be on standby (macam ns laa kan) in case we have any urgent stuffs to settle or whatever . then we'll come back only for the photoshoots which is on 23rd & 24th , fun fun fun fun .

hmm , love wants to catch a movie tomorrow but i told him to save-up . as for this weekends , i seriously have no plans . but i heard that there'll be an outing for us girls ? idk , please update me cause i wont be able to attend if it's a last minute thing . only for next weekends i have another outing with my lovelys crew , cey crew seh . nehh , my family lerr. since last weekend we've already went for a swim , this time round we're gonna play futsal ! weehoooo ! & sure enough this time round all my guy-cousins will be attending . MAKE SURE !! whee~

im such a happy girl , with all my love ones around me ! ILOVETHEM ALL !

okehh , imissmylove MUHDARIFFBINJAFFRY . we're soon gonna reach 6 months . whee ~ and the same goes to my bday . it will fall on the same day . hah hah hah ! so like , uhhhh COINCIDENCE-LY ! :D i wont expect much , just expecting him to give me a kiss at my cheek under the sunset or maybe beside a beach ? boleh tak b ? heee ^^ my fantasies .

lagu amii sedih nye , heh . make me remember this classmate of mine , TZY !! awww , how i miss them all . next year we will all be in the sec 4 badge , like how time flies . hmmm , then sooner or later we will all graduate & aww aww awww kisses & misses ): hah !

BYEBYE ! before this post gets longer and mundane-er .

alaaaaa , cannot upload photos . keh la bye !

2009-11-11T08:45:00.003+08:00

LAMER NYE TAK POST ! hehe .

been busy these days , with cca & lessons -___-

my leg's & hip's in pain after learning how to hip-roll . whee~ ^^ , all thanks to sonia . she forced & forced until i manage to do it & she wont let me off till i did it right . fierce fierce . im just a beginner and still wants to learn more . & thats when the fun part gonna come . :D im like searching for my fitting shirt so that i can cut it into half . semangats . & now im like having second thoughts to pierce my tummy . sonia , AMII nak jugak . :P as if i can ,pfffft .

i cant sleep properly , since 3am till 7.30am i kept tossing and turning and waking up & didnt i expect that bby was in the same situation . called him up & he told me that he didnt want to attend his prac today . pffft , pemalas . just because his friends wasted about a thousand on the license , he lost interest in taking up his driving license . dumb dumb . nevermind , perserve bebeh . i will always be encouraging you (:

i kept farting , idk why . sonia and ana has already smelled it for the first time . :P cause usually i'll fart with sounds but with no smell . ameeeeek korang , mampus . soon , love's gonna smell it . maybe period's coming i guess . i also kept munching and digesting food frequently . love did notice it . 2 pimple has also appeared at my forehead , damn pain . maybe missy red's coming .

planned not to go for wardrobe , lazy . message sonia , " AMII tak nak pi wardrobe boleh ? " i thought she's gonna spank my ass but instead , " sonia pun tak nak gy uh " hahahaahha . siak . kalau ana , " why ? " haha , tak jiwer uh . :P

k laaaa , bye ! buuuring .

2009-11-06T12:59:00.002+08:00

this ariff is really getting on my nerves . he's so gonna get it from me . asked him to leave the house at 12 yet he went out just now . I HAVE PLANS FOR TMR !! & today . :D tmr , cousins asked me to go for a dip at jurong whereas today anabby asked to lepak lepak lepak with them at around 5.30 like that . i've got a feeling to chillax with them but at the same time malas . hehehe , we'll see how ler . for tmr , i cant wait . wheee~ but bby confirm tak kasi cause he wants to meet me tmr . bleahh , will pujuk rayu sama dia . hahah . oke laa , for 2 days i havent had my bath & now im gonna bath !! khekhekhe . busyuk leer amii . SORRY SIKIT ! tak bahu oke ?!

jokes ler , byebye lovely . MUAH!

2009-11-05T17:20:00.003+08:00

im bored , watching the tv just to kill the time . the weather's cold and breezy . it make me fall asleep but im having the urge to pee but unluckily , just too lazy . diyana came over , we watched wipeout & laughed like hell . and then the time came for her to get back home . & here i am rotting right in front of the tv set .

love's prolly on his way home back from school . missing him so much . bleahh , seriously bored nak mampus . i really hope to have plans for this weekends . gonna have a haircut . gonna window-shop since i have no more money left in my wallet . gaah ~ i need a job ler . told mama bout it , she seems okeh but the problem lies with love , but if he still detest .. i will have no objection .

this's gonna be random but ....

i wanna be closer to god . want to change to a better person . it doesnt sounds crazy and i think i should be able to do it . eversince they're saying those absurd things like "2012 is the year when everything's gonna end" ( there's even a movie about it ) , i think i shall change for the better . tho i despise those awful thinkings i just think i want to be closer to god before the time doesnt allow us to . but i cant understand why or maybe how they know that 2012 is the end of time . i cant help but shaking my head & having goosebumps whenever the advertisements on 2012 appear especially on MTV . its like they're too expecting & wanting the world to end . or maybe they're knocking some senses into us , to repent before its too late ? but why 2 years before and not long ago ? are they taking things too slowly ? it saddens me that the world's gonna end just like that ? well , maybe we're responsible for it . God wouldnt be unfair .

just an advise to do nice things instead of those meanful things that would hurt people cause if you do so , you're giving peace a chance (quoted from kaseh's bog title ^^ ) tak mahu luhh jahat-jahat , cemburu-cemburu pun tak gunaa . be happy , think of your future . there's no need for you to take care of other's life while you have your own life to take care of . be close to your parents , dont be rude to them cause you'll find happiness :D

macam lecturer tak ? :P , i dont care if you wont heed my advices cause in the end it will be only between you & God & your own deathbed . so just all the best for your future endeavourers . moga tercapai cita-cita kamu dan selalu mengingati Allah

wheee ^^ , bai bai .

2009-11-05T12:33:00.002+08:00

sme'kum semuaa . :D step cute je eh ?

I COOKED FOR EVERYONE TAU JUST NOW ! ^^ V , sedap . heh heh , no shame ler this amirah . compliment what i cook . ehh ! english , last warning ! :D i was sitting in amirul's room when mama came in and say " amirah , pi masak sane . barang barang dah beli . masak lauk chelok" . i terus blank , speechless . lucky its easy to cook & it turns out nice . im so happy with myself , thats an achievement to be proud of y'know ?

i was browsing my old pictures and when i saw amirul's face , i laughed like hell ! he has changed alot doesnt he ? hahahhaha ! ohhh my god , last year he's so plum & now so slim shade-y . :P but he must worked out to gain abs and muscles , confirm sachoks . hhahha , stop it eh sachok .

its raining , it pouring , the old man is snoring . boring tau weyy at home doing nothing . no houseworks to be done , no homeworks (there is actually , but too lazy ler) , no nothing . baaah! i want to work but love doesnt allow me to . he ask me to sit at home and relax . bleaaah , relax kalau ade duit turun dari langit takpe . gonna persuade him to let me work & when i have the privellege to do so , will tag along with farasha to work together-gether :D:D:D

actually there's wardrobe today but cher's on mc . ___ . ana was like , "alamak , dah mandi" sonia was like , " thanks god !" & i was like "ape seh , waste my time to get up so early in the morning" why are you on MC ?! i boring la at home .

i will end my post here or i'll start on my nonsense . bye !!

2009-11-04T11:31:00.002+08:00

selamat pagi semuanyaa .

i've done my housechores & im so happy happy ^^ seronok sesangat . but not for my stomach , hungry ler . mama's cooking . STINGRAY !! yey ! tak tahan lagi . lapar laa lapar laa ! lala is so kecoh upon seeing bubbles coming out from the dish that my mum's cooking and she goes like this , " mama ! tengok ade bubble ! makin banyak tengok ! " irritating .

rindu rindu rindu sama mereka !

oke laaa , since im hungry i cant think so i guess i'll be updating again later .

rindu sama love juga !

2009-11-03T18:51:00.004+08:00

AMII BORING BORING BORING !!!! aahhhhhh !

for today , both my fingers ter-sepit at two different places . saket luhh . ):

keh anyway , my intention is actually to wish this cutaaye ladaaye , my bubbly cousin a very advance happy bday ! :D wheee ~ dah 14 luhhh . may you succel in whatever you do aye ? :D nanti we celebrate together-gether after you're done with your examinations , that is . ILOVEYOU BEBEH !

2009-11-03T15:47:00.003+08:00

tag replies ;

fen , NOT MY CUTIE ; hahah , you serious ah you're my cutie :P thanks stupid !

fadaa ; thanks bebeh

ikah ; handsumm eh ? cam matair aku ade tak ? hahaha . thanks ! sayang kao !

2009-11-03T14:30:00.004+08:00

hello hello readers ;

just got home from school , had a such nice bath and ohhhhhh such a pleasurable weather . i guess i shall rest my exhausted body and release all my fatigue-ness . bleaaah , tomorrow no school . yey yey ! but there's gonna be cca next week onwards . confirm chop chop no time to update my blog . jangan rindu saya , eeee perasan nye ni budak . bluek :P

somehow my mind's distracted . its either due to my facebook games , the tv show or maybe just missing love too much . grrrrrrrrrrr . yesterday was awesome , talked with love non-stop . was surprised cause usually we wont have anything to talk about and eventually we'll end up fighting . hah , time does give us a chance to get closer & understand each other's weaknesses . :O sayang de la ! i've never felt this way before tau , korang pernah ? best kan feeling de ? im like so mentel right now , so cheeky . ee menyampah , sebat dengan penyapu baru tahu .

love's schooling after his theory & after school he'll be back to bbdc again for another theory . maklumlaa , orang baru amek lesen . haha . :P i shall accompany him one day when he's having his prac . ahaha , who knows how his reaction will be . but too bad , he wont let me accompany him even for once , even if i told him that it will be my first time of doing so . FAAT HOPE ! & speaking of the angel , he just texted me . SUKER SUKER ^^

the rain suddenly stopped , idk why . but still , the breeze is blowing cold . hmmm , since the very beginning of this post .. i just have no idea what to update on . since i have no idea how & what , i'll update again later okeh ? tc lovelies .

ps/ 29 more days to my 15th bday . hehehe . ^^V

2009-11-02T17:57:00.001+08:00

TAG REPLIES ;

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as for those who re-linked me , thanks ! ! :D

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2009-11-02T13:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 5 month bby . we've gone thru alot of obstacles & yet we're still strong as ever . nobody can bring us down cause we love each other . :D sayang die . we'll get thru every circumstances yea ?

cheers ! not -___- for the new blog . pathetic tawu ? gare gare nak buat advertisements pat blog abeh blog amii yang dulu dah tak bleh masok . entah la kenape . malas nak elaborate . so yea , thats part of the reason why i created a new blog . ikah je tahu keadaan amii :P you know i know je luhh .

the weather so sedap that bby is sleeping like a baby gorilla while im eating and updating the blog plus main game pat facebook uh . sempat kan ? tahu .

k laa , update again later . nak kejot si bonchet tu .

tc loves

2009-11-01T22:27:00.001+08:00

my god ?! at last i've done with my blogskins & stuffs .

there's a loot of things that i wish to update on but i've got no time .

gonna call love ! BYE !

relink aye ?

2009-11-01T16:32:00.001+08:00

testing :D